omg. why i didnt realise that my blog is such a great place for me to say out my feelings other than calling my lovely and great and super friends when i'm feeling low or happy!

okay i saw sth just now. and i was just about to break into tears. but i realised i shdnt. not worth it not worth it not worth it! yes i must keep saying this to myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i know i can. just that over the past 8 months i choose not to. it's so not fair to myself. cos he shd be the one feeling worse than me. yes.

my life is actually as great as before!!! i got great friends who love me a lot a lot.. so why do i need him that fragile love for me which is like in the past. wts. okay i'm like spamming and the things i say might be very nan ting. sorry ppl =X but yes. all these nan ting de hua are for him. seriously. and i suddenly realise he so not understand me or does not respect me at all. okay nvm suan le. fan zhen it doesnt matter anymore now. since he love his life so much now, then i shd just dont care so much abt it also. whatever happen in his life doesnt matter to me anymore too.

yes. must convince myself with all this man. at first i very bothered cos i was afraid ppl will know abt everything.. >.< but now, i felt that i shd not be the one to feel bothered or sad cos it's not my fault. maybe partially, i dont know. but definitely mostly or all is his problem.

wah seh i felt so great after saying all these. ^^ must blog more often like seriously. yeah! okay going off now! byebye! (:

treasure those who loves and treasures you, and forget about those who dont..